jdotbanh.

Haven’t been on here in a while…

its been a long time since i’ve been on tumblr but i feel like writing a little something:]

lately ive been happier than ever … its weird because i never been so happy that i doubt this being actual happiness, i know that doesnt make to much sense but thats the best way to describe this feeling she makes me feel, its so incredible that not too long ago my life didnt have much meaning, go to school, go to work, chase a girl that has lost feelings for you a long time ago… but now i feel like i truly have meaning its her… its hard to describe what im feeling; im scared and reluctant to go any deeper into this relationship that i’ve already have, as much as i want to i have my guard up thats preventing me from going deeper i have this huge mind block thats telling me to be careful you dont want to go too deep because she just might be like every other girl you’ve met, theres days where i’ve thought about running but with each thought of doubt there is a thought of reassurance that YOU are different, you make me incredibly happy and i dont think you know just how much; im simple and you fit the requirements that i’ve looked for, you’re the only girl that i can talk to about anything and be myself i dont have to try hard for you for you to like me i dont have to lie about myself to you im just johnny quang banh around you and i feel as if thats all you want from me and i LOVE THAT! you are literally growing to be a part of me, you know me so well you can tell when my emotions change which is quite frightening to say the least but i love the fact that you have that ability. im sad when im not near you, just having you in my vicinity makes my heart and nerves spur up with bliss:] i dont know what this feeling is when i think about you its strange, its like a burning, wallowing feeling i feel under my heart when we are apart, i can honestly say i now know that feeling of that saying “she takes me breathe away” cause she really does its ridiculous i dont know how to comprehend this, its just so amazing that shes chosen me out of all the possible competitor and for that im truly grateful i dont know what this feeling is i dont want to say it love cause i have no idea what that feels like because i thought i’ve loved before but THIS… this thing that i have with you this beautiful thing is soooo much more different and im willing to fight for this for as long as i can and i feel you would fight for it just as much as i would… girl im really digging you and i dont know how to put it in words… ;p